another weight loss blog.

apparently writing weight loss blogs is actually helping people beat the bulge...im skeptical. however, saying as nothing else is working i thought to myself while reading my old friend ann's hilarious posts (http://www.ffwise.blogspot.com/) that i guess if anything writing on here will distract me from eating. or make me hungrier. who knows. so here goes. today was an odd day since i was home visiting mom, woke up late, hauled myself upstairs and was wonderfully surprised by breakfast waiting for me. amazing isnt it? also what's amazing is how healthy my parents eat. they must have magically turned off cravings and taste buds or had a memory lapse erasing all past experiences with delicious french fries, hamburgers and alcohol...nevertheless breakfast from mom was great! steel cut gluten free oatmeal with honey and cinnamon along with green tea. though i had 2 servings of oats, which was totally unnecessary. whoops!

see the thing is tho, i didnt continue with the healthy eating. few hours later after consistently grazing on almost a lb of almonds throughout, i decided to eat my leftover chana masala from Kurry Kabob indian resturant last night. oh and some chocolate chips as well as something else that i cant remember. i do remember however how i kept going back for more (and more and more!) chocolate chips. they are just so good. too bad they add up quick.

dinner again, healthy. I should really go on a weight loss vacation...to my parents. we ate millet cooked with onion, tomato, basil and rosemary (all grown at home) along with brussel sprouts and 2oz each of grass fed steak that they got from a local farmer. did treat myself to 2 glasses of wine... and more chocolate chips. ugh!

now im here, laying in bed, crazing grains. going all day without...makes leah want bread! even though i was thinking of going gluten free. wouldnt that be such a hassel tho? no beer? no thanks. maybe sometime but right now i have a goal. 12 lbs. which to be honest has been my goal my whole life. but even more so now that i gained weight last year that has decided not to leave. it just sits around, not doing anything and making people feel bad...so who in the hell brought him to the party?

12 lbs.
it seems daunting especially since im determined my metabolism is non existent. and since ive just started working out again after a back injury i realize i want to lose weight and get lean not bulky...everyone's dream right?

let the weight loss commence~