Day 5

So my nutrition plan continues...and i havent seen any change in weight. none. greeeat. tomorrow is my follow up appointment to get my test results back so hopefully something will show up (well thats a bad way to look at it but i wish i could figure out whats going on) just ate stuffed avocados again for lunch, and had eggs for breakfast. its nice with its repetativeness... the weekends are the only hard part. off to yoga...

Here we go again

Getting back to writing and trying to keep my motivation up. Started a new program today after meeting with nutritionist Maria Emmerich (follow her blog at http://mariahealth.blogspot.com/) She set me up with a low carb, high protein and higher fat diet with many supplements. I am on day two of the program, and so far so good. The only downfall...food is expensive! and so are supplements. But I just have to keep my motivation up, and know that being healthy and happy with my body is more important than drinking and eating like crap. Right? ha. we'll see anyway...
So yesterday I started with 2 eggs scrambled, had a snack of celery and pb, lunch of these AMAZING seafood stuffed avocados, followed by a dinner of salmon with shiritake noodles and a small side salad. I slipped up and had 1.5 triscuits before realizing that i couldnt eat them. :xseafood stuffed avocados...yum!

Alright, time for my first snack of the day. Have a great weekend everyone!

brief

ok. so i dont really have much to say. i'm 124 at the dr (where i spent 4 hrs last week to get tests done to see why im gaining so much weight) and 126 on my scale and then some days 130. its crazy. i think my scale is insane and has a mind of its own. it only cost 3 dollars at target... if that tells you anything.

am also meeting with a nutritionist today to see if there is anything else i can do.

thats all.

Seriously!?

Yesterday I weighed myself and i had gained 6 lbs since starting the detox GAINED! what the hell!? Today I was back down a bit having only gained 3. But still GAINED WEIGHT! So i looked into some things, and apparently the fiber powder that I had been talking was 3x the dose of the other kind. which means i have SO Much fiber in my body. i hope im just bloated...just found a forum about it online:http://bit.ly/cuvOYJ it gives some pretty good answers.

anyway, ill keep you posted. pissed about my weight gain right now.

Detoxing continues...

Well everything is going well. Though I feel like I'm CONSTANTLY eating. going into day 3 and havent lost a single lb. great. But yesterday I was talking with a dear old friend from high school (and realized that was already 6 years ago...6!!!! wtf.) then I felt extremely old for a bit... saying as ill be 24 in a few weeks and 123 lbs. it keeps going up every year. its sad. She told me however, that she willed herself thinner. Willed. And it worked! Every day she would just tell herself in the mirror how good and thin she was. and eventually she lost weight. I am going to research this more. hahha and maybe give it a go. maybe my negative self talk is getting me no where. It's about 8-10 years of undoing that im undertaking here. but i can do it. now i just have to get out of bed...hrmmm

Liver Detox:Day One

After this weekend I definitely need the liver detox that I started today. uffdah. I spent saturday consuming as many calories as I normally would in about 3 days. ate both meals at a bar, and had about 5 beers and a shot of rum. what?! plus my last meal was at 11 at night! french fries, tater tots, grilled, grease you name it it went in my mouth.

so today i began a liver detox given to me by my moms nutritionist. I cant disclose the detox but i can tell you that i:
1) have to eat the same thing for 12 days
2) cant drink for 12 days (shouldnt be hard but soooo will be!)
3) have to drink a LOT of fibersure... :/
4) there are no carbs included.

so that being said, i have just completed day one. whew. it's said to help you lose 6-8 lbs of actual fat not just u know, water weight. i also went to yoga tonight even though i was sore from my elliptical (1hr) +weights and abs yesterday....i just keep telling myself...its worth it its worth it...

Sunburnt and Still Hungry

Today I spent the day on the beach, and came home the color of the tomato I had for dinner. However being outside in the sun all day has decreased my hunger by a ten fold. All I've had today is some oatmeal, apples, eggs and frozen mangos (a awesome snack when its hot out and your skin is radiating heat) I did try to drink a beer with my scrambled egg dinner however it just tasted awful. So that's good. I also went a brisk walk around the lake (ok ok it was only 30 min) before i plopped myself down in the sand.

So now, as I sit here, swollen from sun and full of mangos I cant help but wonder... what will i eat tomorrow? I have no "satisfying" food in the fridge... well that means no french fries or burgers. ugh

wish me luck

ok so i didnt go to the gym. turned into a beautiful day out! so i went for a 30 min bike ride. i know, short but i was on my single gear schwinn hollywood circa 1972. so it was a bit slow going.

have a walk scheduled with old roomate steph at 5, so that will help burn calories though i've got 882 that i can still eat..maybe ill stay under my allowance today! :)

off for a walk... stay tuned.

my body hates me...

woke up this morning weighing 3 lbs heavier.

this happens like 2x a week so most likely related to water weight, salt intake etc but seriously? SERIOUSLY? Right as I embark on my weight loss journey from a dif. angle, my body has to say "F#$@ you!"

hmph guess i WILL be going to the gym today.

another weight loss blog.

apparently writing weight loss blogs is actually helping people beat the bulge...im skeptical. however, saying as nothing else is working i thought to myself while reading my old friend ann's hilarious posts (http://www.ffwise.blogspot.com/) that i guess if anything writing on here will distract me from eating. or make me hungrier. who knows. so here goes. today was an odd day since i was home visiting mom, woke up late, hauled myself upstairs and was wonderfully surprised by breakfast waiting for me. amazing isnt it? also what's amazing is how healthy my parents eat. they must have magically turned off cravings and taste buds or had a memory lapse erasing all past experiences with delicious french fries, hamburgers and alcohol...nevertheless breakfast from mom was great! steel cut gluten free oatmeal with honey and cinnamon along with green tea. though i had 2 servings of oats, which was totally unnecessary. whoops!

see the thing is tho, i didnt continue with the healthy eating. few hours later after consistently grazing on almost a lb of almonds throughout, i decided to eat my leftover chana masala from Kurry Kabob indian resturant last night. oh and some chocolate chips as well as something else that i cant remember. i do remember however how i kept going back for more (and more and more!) chocolate chips. they are just so good. too bad they add up quick.

dinner again, healthy. I should really go on a weight loss vacation...to my parents. we ate millet cooked with onion, tomato, basil and rosemary (all grown at home) along with brussel sprouts and 2oz each of grass fed steak that they got from a local farmer. did treat myself to 2 glasses of wine... and more chocolate chips. ugh!

now im here, laying in bed, crazing grains. going all day without...makes leah want bread! even though i was thinking of going gluten free. wouldnt that be such a hassel tho? no beer? no thanks. maybe sometime but right now i have a goal. 12 lbs. which to be honest has been my goal my whole life. but even more so now that i gained weight last year that has decided not to leave. it just sits around, not doing anything and making people feel bad...so who in the hell brought him to the party?

12 lbs.
it seems daunting especially since im determined my metabolism is non existent. and since ive just started working out again after a back injury i realize i want to lose weight and get lean not bulky...everyone's dream right?

let the weight loss commence~